right now i feel a lot like i did last winter when, in retrospect, i was definitely going through a depression. and i was doing things i wouldn't usually do

when you always feel this defence blanket of neutral it is hard to workout whether you have depression or not

but i guess thats like, the entirety of what depression is right?

usually i'm completely neutral with some moments of excitement peaking through, but as of recently it has just been a heavy greyness. and like my head is empty...